The Way I Swing.

Well its been an entire week on Accutane and I have to say I am feeling pretty good. Yes its true, the side effects are pretty horrible. But I believe that in order to really have amazing results you have to put in a lot of hard work (which is why I will probably not be seeing such incredible results on my upcoming Developmental Psych midterm..woops.)

My skin is a littler dryer than usual, but nothing a little cetaphil can't handle. My lips are extremely dry so I've taken to keeping a mini chap stick in every single pocket of every jacket I ever wear, and a little aquafor in every school bag/purse/clutch/wallet I own. Being better prepared makes it easier. And let me tell you, this chapped lips thing, its not normal just chapped lips. Its dry, and sandpaper like and just really awful. Not to mention it kills to smile with them plain and dry.
My joints and muscles are pretty sore as well.
And I have severe dry mouth, which just promotes me to drink more water on a daily basis than usual which is fantastic for you (honestly we should all be drinking close to 10 glasses of water a day but who really does that..)

What I want to talk about today is a side effect that may seem minor in comparison but probably plagues hundreds of thousands of women and girls each and every day. Yes ladies, I am talking about mood swings. Now I know most of you guys that are reading probably just want to close out of the blog and forget it for the day. But don't. Its statistically proven that men experience just as many mood swings as women, they just dont notice or acknowledge them. 

Now sadly in the past Accutane has been linked to thoughts and actions of suicide and depression, but because of all the high tech new medical methods available out there is it no longer as major of a problem. But these mood swings and spouts of anger or depression are sometimes hard to cope with.

I have always been an upbeat, lively, and exciting person. Ever since I was a little girl I was always the one to yell, scream, laugh and have an amazing time no matter the circumstance or situation. I have always lived my life with happiness, pleasure, and delight. I take so much pride in my personality and how I have this spectacular gift of making people laugh and smile (yes tooting my own horn..I realize.) So when I first started to notice a slight change in my everyday demeanor this past week I got very nervous. What was this drug doing to me? I suddenly felt a little sluggish, more tired and less inclined to go out and about with friends. And this feeling did not go away. In fact it got a little worse day by day. By the time the weekend rolled along all Shabbat long I did not feel like doing anything. I wanted to sleep and read and not socialize at all.
It of course did not help that a few of my friends were also experiencing rough patches this past weekend and in addition were also not in the mood to deal with any of my funny business.
I think that gradually it will get better and easier as the month goes on. But for now its been hard differentiating how I am actually feeling with how this medication is making me feel. I have nothing to be sad about thank God. I have amazing and supportive family and friends and a very nurturing and kind environment at school. I just have to keep telling myself to keep going and be strong through all of this.

Anyways on a MUCH brighter note my skin is really starting to look amazing. Its clearing up right before my eyes and really evening out. I look like a normal person again! At this point its getting very red very quickly so I need to find some sort of product that relieves redness so if anyone has any suggestions please comment below!
Next time well talk about how something so small as a little red dot on your face can just change the entire way you view yourself, and how you think others see you.

Keep reading and keep commenting guys! If you have any questions or suggestions or stories or really ANYTHING I would love to see it below. There is no greater feeling in the world than seeing an email that someone has commented on my blog.
You all rock!

Ariella